World through my Eyes

ITS TIME FOR REFORMATION,THE TIME WHICH HAS PUT ME UNDER LOT OF STRESS MAKING ME BLEED.THE VERY FEELING IS EXHAUSTING ALL THOSE OPTIMUM ENERGY I WAS CONSERVING FOR MY FUTURE.FUTURE AS IT APPEARS NOW IS MEAGRE,WEAK,SICK......SO WHERE DID IT ALL START ? DEFINETLY IT HAD A START,WITHOUT WHICH HOW CAN SOMETHING JUST HAPPEN...... YES I STARTED IT, AFTER MY GRADUATION,I HAD A BIG FEELING TO MAKE PEOPLE TURN THEIR CONCEPTION ABOUT ME INTO SOMETHING BIG AND MORE BIG AND I ENDED UP HERE.. THE REASON FOR MY FAILURES IN VARIOUS EVENTS HAD BEEN THIS,BUT I WASNT SURE IT WAS THIS.NOW I REALISE ITS THIS THAT MADE THINGS GO BAD AND TO A VERY GREAT EXTENT THAT I AM UNABLE TO RETRACE THOSE TRACKS TO FIND THE PATH THAT MISLEAD ME INTO A ALTER WORLD WHERE EVERTYTHING IS LIKE A BIG CRAP WITH A TAG "MADE BY NAREN". ATLAST I ENDED UP WHERE I STARTED..BACK TO THE BEGINNING... I DONT KNOW WHERE I AM.......WHAT I AM.........WILL I BE THE SAME? QUESTIONS ALOT OF THEM JUST HOVERING LIKE A H